It’s the day before classes start (although I don’t have class until Wednesday) and already seeing some bad signs of procrastination, past stresses and distractions encroaching, and family issues.
Letting this type of stuff get to me or not taking responsibility has been my past ineffective response and I acknowledge that, but trying to take it all in and get through it all doesn’t seem to be the best course of action either. Sometimes I want to just yell “Can’t you guys just understand?”. I want to grow up, but growing up means knowing when to deal with bullshit and when/how to say enough is enough.
I will be optimistic, but time is running out. Please let me make it in time.
I’ll make this semester awesome. Awesome doesn’t mean that it’ll be easy or unstressful. I’ll have to let some things go. I’ll have to have sleepness nights. I’ll have to suffer a few bad grades. I’ll have to deal with people I find annoying/stressful/inconsiderate/smart/stupid/authoritative/passive. I’ll enjoy myself, learn more, focus and define my values/priorities, and start living in reality rather than a fictional hope filled world.
